星期六, 十月 29, 2005

[文化大不同]天边一朵云

一直以来都想看蔡明亮导演的戏.可惜,太艺术的台湾片子,本地是比较难找的


那天阴阳差错下,在卖黄带的DVD小贩那看到<天边一朵云>的DVD.天!我不知该为蔡导演感到悲哀还是什么的.得奖的片在大马竟然被人当三仔来卖!是翻版商慧眼识货还是大马电减局保守.

这戏有太多的争议,尺度啦?得奖啦!等等.明亮的戏有个问题(高明?)的地方是,不同人看了有不同的认知和体会.很多时候,看得懂的人都会若有所思的.那<天边一朵云>蔡明亮的三级片还是蔡明亮的现实爱情片?这是见人见智的.

对我而言,这片是充满的矛盾和生气的.情欲不能两同而感到痛苦和纳闷不已.最后那幕是震撼的,对演员的牺牲和专业感到敬佩.

看来,蔡明亮的戏是适合想太多的人,好比我.哈哈!


另外,看完这片子后.我开始对西瓜感到难过,没什么胃口.看过的人就明白,爱过的人更明白.

星期二, 十月 18, 2005

[我思故我在]忙与盲

忙与盲

忙、盲、茫、莽

早上七点出门

晚上十一点回到家

十六个钟头在外

在路上

在办公室

在客户那

在工地


词:张艾嘉/袁琼琼 曲:李宗盛


曾有一次晚餐和一张床一个梦

在什么时候地点和那个对象

我已经遗忘 我已经遗忘

生活是肥皂香水眼影唇膏

许多的电话在响

许多的事要遗备忘

许多的门和抽屉

开了又开 关了又关 又关如此的慌张

我来来往往 我匆匆忙忙

从一个方向到另一个方向

忙忙忙 忙忙忙

忙是为了自己的理想 还是为了不让别人失望

盲盲盲 盲盲盲

盲得已经没有主张 盲得已经失去方向

忙忙忙 盲盲盲

忙得分不清欢喜还是忧伤 忙得没有事件痛哭一场


个人很喜欢这首歌。以前喜欢也许是它的旋律很动听,歌词很不错。但近来对这歌的感触更深。除了忙与盲外,我还要加两个-茫与莽。


除了忙碌工作

除了盲目奋斗

我更是对我的前途感到茫然,生活也更莽撞

第一次对自己的前途感到茫然

经济研究? 财务咨询? IT商人? 媒体搞手?正义斗士?

脾气不好的我更是容易动气莽撞


歌继续唱,生活继续延续

人生在需转弯时必然小心紧张

当轻舟过万从山时柳暗花明又一春天


严冬将尽,春天就不远艾!

星期五, 十月 14, 2005

[侧眼看世界]Bali Island, another blast


又是恐怖自杀式袭击
在那美丽动人的巴厘岛
为何你的命运是那么的坎坷
两次的爆炸 你还能承受吗

那独裁者企图抹杀印度文化的影子
但它却活活生生地在巴厘岛
尽管四周都是亚拉的子民
Puteri Gunung Ledang也告诉了大家你的美丽存在
极端选择了你是否因为你是婆罗的后人

爆炸前一星期同事刚与你嬉戏回来
爆炸前一个月老板刚与你畅饮归来
我和你的约会在何时
不理了
炸弹再多 我都要来见你
见你一解相思仰慕之情
春天我飘洋过海来爱你

星期一, 十月 10, 2005

[我思故我在]新面皮,旧脑浆


从新规定我的部落的风格和次序。希望大家多给予评语。

侧眼看世界

-我不在主流中,所以只能在旁,冷眼旁观这世界政治的变化。它不限于国内政治,因为身为大马国民,我们是不能逃离它的,尽管它充满了无奈和frustration。它也不能只看国内,因为这是全球化的年代。大马人要走出去与世界接轨才能自救。

文化大不同
-成长于一个多元又单元的社会-马来文化霸权下的大中华家庭。98年冬天去北京回来后,从个大中华份子大彻大悟转变成个多元文化主义信仰者。政治是所有问题的表面,那文化则是问题的核心。这里从文化看世界。

我思故我在
-我没有迪卡特(Descartes)那么有哲人的思维。但因为我相信我活着是为了思考( to think is to live),所以这里写写我较私人的一面。对生活、爱情、亲情、友情、事业等等的看法。

丝路在跳舞
-这是我即将开始的旅游笔记.有时间也会从新整理以前的些游记。余秋雨行者无疆,那我是游人无边。

星期日, 十月 09, 2005

[文化大不同]JLP Acoustic ~ Alanis Morissette

It’s was long time ago I went to Midvalley for shopping. One Sunday I went there lunch appointment with friends and I went to Tower Record. I’s looking for Sheryl Crow & 陈绮贞latest album . However, I could not found these 2 but accidentally found this one – JLP - 10 years anniversary commemorative edition.

Wow! When I first heard and know about Alanis Morissette was 10 years ago. In 1996, she won the Grammy award and her album became the best selling album of the year. She even beat Maria Carey and Winston Houston. Since then, I start admiring her and her music until today.

That year a controversy was happen in here where one o
f the songs in JLP - Jagged Little Pill consists of a FUCK word in the lyric. Everyone was arguing and conservative people sure ask to ban this album totally. At last the company came out with a sensor version of JLP for radio. Haha, Malaysia always is the battle ground of conservative feudal mind and model liberal mind.

Alanis music is so powerful and fascinating. The song I like most is Ironic. Look at the lyric.

Ironic


An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's a black fly in your Chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
Isn't it ironic... don't you think?

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures

Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly
He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids goodbye
He waited his whole damn life to take that flight
And as the plane crashed down he thought
"Well isn't this nice..."

And isn't it ironic... don't you think?

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought... it figures

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right

And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face

A traffic jam when you're already late
A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break

It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
It's meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife
And isn't it ironic... don't you think?
A little too ironic... and yeah I really do think...

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take

Who would've thought... it figures

Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out
Helping you out


Life is so ironic.

Look at today content; the biggest terrorism in the world, President George Bush is claiming he is fighting terrorism. What a damn funny liar.

After JLP album, the following are : Supposed Former Infatuation(1998), Alanis MTV Unplugged(1999), Under Rug Swept (2002) & So-called Chaos (2004).

Another few songs from Alanis that I like most are: Angel & Uninvited from City of Angel OST and King of Pain from mtv unplugged album.

When I saw this album, I’s in dilemma. I have this album already, shall I buy this JLP – 10 year anniversary edition with a few acoustic version inside? Why she re-publish the album that makes her famous in 10 years ago? Is Alanis in bottle neck & crisis now? Is the company just wanted to earn money from her fan like me? World become more and more commercialize, the capital world make us suffer without feeling and enjoy been torched. The com
mercialism not only happens in material goods but in politics, media & culture. Go read龙应台《野火集》~二十周年纪念版的新序,you will understand the observation. (Another 20 years anniversary edition? Another author trying to make money?)Those who have much more clearer mind will continue to suffer. So shall I drunk in this world or awake from it?

Well, at last I bought it. I bought JLP album when I already had it, ironic? Haha.

Some llinks:
http://www.alanis.com
http://www.alanis-morissette.com

星期三, 十月 05, 2005

[我思故我在]牙痛,牙痛

牙痛,牙痛

小时候,爱哭闹,所以老妈就用奶嘴骗我安静。结果,长大后牙齿长得不美,哨牙。


中学时就被爱我的老妈子抓到政府牙医院去整容-牙齿桥正。就这样被牙医恶魔折磨了4年,两颗大牙还被拔掉。戴着牙套吃东西不方便,涮牙也很痛苦。从此我是那么的痛恨牙医们。我的噩梦!


那天拿着公司每年的护牙费用到牙医那去看看。


牙医:“欢迎观临。。。看看你的牙齿。不错,没有洞,只是要洗一洗”

一阵机器洗牙的声音。

牙医:“哎哟,我看到了一个洞($$$,洞乃是钱也!)。。啊,这里还有一个($$$,牙医先生好像很兴奋似的。)”


好了,看看我的单。天,牙医真会吸血,洗个牙,再补两个洞,结果就是马币一百七十大元!!!

看来原本没牙痛的我,开始牙痛了!我的天啊!牙医先生还说:“以后记得每半年或一年就要来一次哦!”多么好的笑容。


牙医太用力帮我洗牙,结果我牙齿和它的神经痛了一晚。神经线痛连带引起我的头也痛了起来。结果周末就这么被我浪费了-等牙医,吃panadol,休息。


牙医-我的恶魔,我的噩梦。哎哟哎哟,牙痛牙痛,荷包也痛!

星期一, 十月 03, 2005

[我思故我在]Reunion 5B96

上两星期特地赶回家乡去出席老同学的婚宴。

中学那一班猪朋狗友中,5B班的第一位男生终于“嫁出”了!!!阿成,咱们的新郎公,就是穿西装的那位啦!原本不要摆酒,结果抵不过父命,要是摆了。想到摆婚宴我就怕怕,嘿嘿,你知道我家的了。

朋友结婚,其实就是老同学聚会啦!我班的人都比较迟婚,比起其他班的同学。43位只有2位女生嫁和1位男生结婚-我们那天的新郎,阿成。照片中唯一的女生就是其中一位女士,我们秋庭大姐。她老公没来应为得在家顾孩子!!!

问候朋友们的近况。陆陆续续听到斯党们的计划,买屋子啦,投资啦,家庭计划啦等等。越听我就越不是味儿。赫赫,也许这就是成长的代价吧?!

老朋友结婚当然替他开心;而我呢要保持平常心,做好该做的事就对了,很多东西急不来的。哈哈!